One pill makes you larger and one pill makes you small

dusky_rue @ 2008-06-29T20:57:00

2008-06-30T02:00:55Z

Now for some rather depressing news.

RIP MICHEAL TURNER. :(

I am quite upset now.

dusky_rue @ 2008-06-29T20:30:00

2008-06-30T01:32:28Z

OH man what?

I can't believe June's almost over.

Where did the time go?

Ohright it's Sunday. Moar Venture Bros. tonight. :D

Weeeeiiiirrd dreams...

2008-06-21T00:57:59Z

Okay.

I should know better than to fall asleep during the day time. I always get the most bizarre dreams.

So, I can't remember exactly how this one went, but for some reason it was about superheroes, like, four of them. And they were kids (teenagers actually), but here's the thing: THEY WERE THE BASTARD! CHILDREN OF WOLVERINE AND THE INVISIBLE WOMAN. YES, SUE STORM FROM THE FANTASTIC FOUR. I don't remember what happened exactly but they were on the run from everyone (ala Runaways) because for some reason the Avengers and the people from Weapon X and everyone else wanted them dead? Because they were ABOMINATIONS? Or something. Anyway it was totally trippy and made absolutely no sense. Also, they were totally airbenders with healing factors.

LOL SUBCONSCIOUS.

I blame all the comics I've been reading lately. They've been invading my braaaaiiiin.

Ugh.

2008-06-18T19:45:30Z

Bleh.

I'm sick.

But I'm still gonna go to work. At four. Until ten.

EEEWW. I hate being sick.

GROSS.

D:<

ATTENTION PLZ.

2008-06-01T19:26:06Z

NEW VENTURE BROTHERS TONIGHT. SEASON THREE.

I know where I'll be at 10:30 pm central time. ♥♥♥

LULZ:
I was just looking at my interests list and I realized I had "twilight" as an interest, and it occurred to me that anyone who randomly happened across my journal couldn't possibly know I meant the time of day and not that shitty book so I replaced it with "scary fans are scary" instead.

Eeeaaaaahhh.

2008-05-30T16:11:53Z

My can of diet dr. pepper has ice in it.

So it' s like, a diet dr. pepper slushy.

D:

This wolverine icon is actually appropriate now.

2008-05-20T23:53:17Z

It's funny...whenever something happens (or I have a random thought) I always think to myself: "I could write about this on lj! :D" But by the time I get to the computer, boot it up and log onto lj, I will have inevitably forgotten what the hell I was gonna write about in the first place so I just waste my time ~~lurking~~ looking at people's art journals. D: Does this happen to anyone else or am I just an airhead? Either way. LAME.

So I just finished reading the Ultimate X-men TPBs that inque_splotch loaned me so I am more or less up to date on what's been goin' down in the Ultimate-verse. (I am thinking I want to borrow The Ultimates and/or Ultimate Spider-man, so I guess I should ask Beau if he's got 'em since he's our local comic-guru?)

Some thoughts more or less in chronological order:

-You know, every time I mention Ultimate X-men, people are always like: "The one where Colossus is gay?" as if that's gonna make me not wanna read it. HAH! little do they know that a hardcore yaoi fan such as myself will only view that as a PLUS. On that note, it took some serious balls for the writers to make one of the main characters gay (a male character no less, because you know, when these comic writers need homosexual characters, it's like, LESBIANS ONLY. Lesbian characters are cool and all, but most writers, not to mention most of the fanbase, are male and therefore squicked by gay male characters. So gay guys are few and far between. *SIGH* </cynical>) AND they didn't make him a campy-pansy-type either. Which is good, 'cause that wouldn't have fit the character. Anyway, yeah, kudos to them. XD Which brings us to my next point...

-Colossus/Northstar. D'AWWW. SO. FREAKING. CUTE. XD

-MAGNETO IS SUCH A GOOD VILLIAN. OMG. Charismatic villains FTW. I... I think I like him better than Charles, 'cause with Magneto, you know where he stands. Evil. But Charles is a mystery wrapped in an enigma smothered in secret sauce...

-I don't trust Charles Xavier. He's just soo... ruthless. in his own way. I know he isn't evil... but I don't understand how the X-men can trust him implicitly. He keeps doing this plots-within-plots-within-plots thing and this is supposed to inspire trust in people? Basically, I can see why Nick Fury doesn't trust him. And what kind of a jerk just walks out on his wife and kid?

-Cyclops is a boring stick-in-the-mud and boring. But that didn't stop my D: reaction upon learning he supposedly died in the Savage Land. But okay, now he's back and boring generic-hero-type as ever.

-A;JDLKFJAKDSANGEL IS SO PRETTY. *o* But also kinda useless... Lol when he went all pouty and flew off and Storm went after him, all I could think about was what pretty babies they could make. I mean, with her skin and hair color and his wings and cheekbones any offspring they might have would be the most prettiest people EVAR.

-Okay. I do not get the appeal of Wolverine. I can totally see why Chris doesn't like him. I mean, as a character he's badass, but seriously? All these women (and most likely Colossus) TOTALLY WANT HIM. WHY? He's a hairy, smelly little man with anger management issues. And he's OLDER THAN DIRT. HE FOUGHT IN WWII WITH CAPTAIN AMERICA. Whether he remembers it or not. OLDER THAN DIRT. OLD ENOUGH TO BE JEAN'S GRANDPA. EEEWW. TALK ABOUT MAY/DECEMBER. wtf were you thinking Jean? I mean, I know Cyclops is a goody-goody, but at least he's your own age...

-Okay, okay. It's not the age thing that bothers me. Age difference usually doesn't bother me, (see the Gambit/Rogue entry below) I've just come to the conclusion that Wolverine has some kind of animal-magnetism-sex-appeal that draws in the other characters but doesn't translate off the printed page. Or something.

-I like Scarlet Witch and Quicksilver. Poor Pietro, he just wants his daddy to lurve him...D: What? they're running with the Ultimates now? I wouldn't mind seeing more of them.

-BEAST DDDD: Poor Storm :(

-Storm goes slightly goth complete with stupid homemade haircut.

-OMG LONGSHOT YOU JERKY JERK. YOU BROKE MY HEART ~~AND COLOSSUS'~~ WRYYY ;_;

-Kitty-Rogue-Bobby teen drama-rama.

-LOL GAMBIT'S HAIR. Magneto should be concerned about Gambit's hair. IT WILL TAKE OVER THE FREAKING WORLD.

-AWWW ROGUE AND GAMBIT. AWWW. THEY MIGHT EVEN CHALLENGE COLOSSUS/NORTHSTAR AS THE CUTEST COUPLE. I believe Dazzler puts it best: "He's gotta be like, twice her age. That is HOT." Yes Dazzler, yes it is.

-GAMBIT. DDDD: I'm sad now.

-Eeeww Fenris twincest. TWINCEST. They look like opposite-sex clones. (It didn't help that they reminded me of the Jesses :P)

-AHAHAH. I LOVE DAZZLER. I KNOW SHE'S B-LIST, BUT SHE'S SO FUNNY. And she hooks up with Angel. And then coma. Then kidnapped. :(

-OMG NIGHTCRAWLER. D: KURT! WHY!? WHY WITH THE FREAKING OUT!? Because Colossus is gay? Seriously? D: That can't be the only reason. But I still love Nightcrawler, he's one of my favorites and this just adds depth to his character. AND NOW HE'S KING OF THE MORLOCKS. lol.

-Jean Gray is one of my favorite characters BUT I AM DISSAPOINTED THAT SHE HASN'T EVEN DIED ONCE YET. I THOUGHT THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE X-MEN. </kidding.>

-Wait! Kitty! Come back! D:

-Poor Jean, poor crazy Jean.

-Oh wow. Professor X is in love with Jean? Whoa.

-Could Cyclops actually be developing a personality? Nope, just being reckless.

-So Cable is future Wolverine?

-WHAT PROFESSOR X IS DEAD!? WHAT!? NO WAY. I DON'T BELIEVE IT. I REFUSE. I MIGHT NOT HAVE TRUSTED THE GUY BUT STILL... ;____;

-ohwait nevermind.

-SCOTT YOU TWIT YOU CANT DISBAND THE X-MEN.

-SCOTT YOU TWIT I CANT BELIEVE YOU ACTUALLY DISBANDED THE X-MEN.

-OK I guess this Bishop guy is putting together a new team? BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME.

-Y hello thar Betsy. Or should I say Psylocke? Long time no see.

-HAH. I KNEW BEAST WASN'T DEAD FOR REAL. I KNEW IT. Only proves that STATUS QUO IS GOD.

-LEGACY VIRUS? THAT SOUNDS AWFULLY FAMILIAR. OH NOES.

I WANT MORE COMICS NOW.

So I guess I'll go read me some Fathom.

But before I go:

Now before I get any comments relating to the subject, no, they are not earth/fire/whatever bending. They're mages. And original characters from my story (which has been knocking around inside my head since I was fourteen, so there you go) They have elemental affinities, but...I don't feel like explaining right now. I'm worn out from typing the above x-men thoughts. If you really want to know, comment on it. But seriously. Avatar (as much as I adore that show) did NOT invent the whole four elements thing. If anything this has more Captain Planet and the Planeteers influence (not much, 'cause the story is more supernatural/occult than that...) than Avatar... which should be an indicator of how long I've had this idea. >_>; These characters belong in the same story as the dark-haired girl from my last art post.

LOLOL. I can totally tell the compositon is influenced by the cover art of the X-men comics.

Sidenote: I CAN'T WAIT FOR CONVERGENCE. AND I'M SUDDENLY IN THE MOOD FOR MORE DOCTOR WHO.

dusky_rue @ 2008-05-12T15:31:00

2008-05-12T20:57:22Z

ART TIEM.

Some acrobat girl. I can totally see her outfit as some kind of horrendous, glittery pink and blue thing.
Fun Fact: When I was doing the (half-assed) cleanup on this one, I spent a good 5 minutes trying to erase what I thought was a scanner artifact but turned out to be a smudge on the monitor. LOL IM SO SMRT. P:

One of my characters. With some BSed occult-ish symbolism.

I've decided to scan at least one thing a week and post it. Only once a week, 'cause that's when I have access to a scanner that isn't utter crap. These were actually scanned last Thursday when I was at school. LETS SEE IF I CAN ACTUALLY KEEP THIS UP. I HAVE HIGH HOPES. :D

Ow ow ow there's this pain in my drawing hand that WILL NOT GO AWAY. Or rather, it will go away for a while then come back WITH A VENGEANCE. I BLAME THE INTERNET. D:

Tastes like...burning. Ow.

2008-04-23T19:55:29Z

BEES.

BEES ON THE PORCH.

PORCH BEES.

AAAUUGGGHH.

omgihavetowalkpastthemtogetthemail. D:

***

Okay so yesterday I caved and watched the two unaired episodes of Avatar online. (New episodes in July whoo) Also the two episodes from the first part of season 3 that I hadn't seen yet. I don't like watching shows online 'cause the quality isn't as good usually and I just don't like watching shows on the computer when there's a perfectly good tv upstairs. Even if there are commercials. I hate commercials. HATE. Also, what's up with those damned intrusive graphics at the bottom of the screen that GET BIGGER EVERY TIME YOU LOOK AT THEM? HUH? I DONT WANT TO KNOW WHATS COMMING ON NEXT IF IT MEANS TAKING A THIRD OF THE SCREEN TO DO IT. D:

I also watched the trailer for the rest of season 3. Warned that there were gonna be spoilers, but what I saw wasn't that spoiler-y. Especially stuff that could be taken out of context... y'all prolly know what I'm talkin' 'bout.

So anyway, after I satisfied my Avatar fix, I started thinking. (Be afraid. be very afraid.) After seeing that other version of the trailer with all the fangirl-sqealing during the "shippy parts" it hit me why I don't like the Aang/Katara pairing. Katara seems so...motherly (this was even lampshaded on "The Runaway") it feels vaguely incesty. Even so, I'm still 98% sure that's what's gonna happen :| 'cause, you know, the hero just has to get the girl. Ah well.

***

Ugh. there are times I hate being female and this is one of them. wryyyyy D: *curls into fetal position*

dusky_rue @ 2008-03-14T19:12:00

2008-03-15T00:35:16Z

OH MAN I'M GONNA BE 23 TOMORROW.

23.

THE HORROR.

I feel old ._.

Not that 23 is old... but I still feel old. :|

This is gonna be the year. For what, I do not know. Yet.

Also cake. :3

Oh. My. God.

2008-02-28T00:45:59Z

Last night they played X the movie on the scifi channel.

It was so horrible it was awesome.

Like...watching a train wreck. In slow motion.

And I watched the whole thing in it's horribly dubbed, badly censored, poorly edited glory. I think I may have died alittle inside.

I-I couldn't look away...The dub is absolutely the worst thing EVAR. (Well, Arashi's was pretty good, but that was the only one.) And scifi was soo stupid with the commercial-cuts. (right in the middle of a scene? I mean, come on.)

I don't think too highly of the movie to begin with, (i've seen it before) because it tries to cram a whole lot of story into 97 minutes. The pacing is really bad, and if you don't have at least rudimentary knowledge of the manga, you're totally lost within the first five minutes. It isn't successful as a movie if you have to do your research before watching the damn thing. A movie is something you should be able to go into blind (so to speak) and still be able to follow the story. With the X movie, you can't. That said, it could have been some really cool symbolic surrealistic movie, but it fell flat. Very flat. And no, I'm not just biased against it 'cause Seishirou and Subaru died within the first five minutes BUT THAT CERTAINLY DOESN'T HELP MATTERS ANY. Generally you, as the audience, are supposed to feel empathy toward the characters, but again, I only felt a twinge when they all died because I know them from the manga. (Which, incidently, is the only canon I accept. Meaning, X has no ending yet. and possibly never will if CLAMP doesn't ~~get off their collective ass~~ finish it.) One thing I can't stand is a movie having so much potential to be awesome and it just...doesn't happen. And I was willing to watch it again, despite all that, so what does that say about me? *sigh*

But at least the animation is pretty?

Well, the movie's still better than the TV series.

The following three things have nothing in common

2008-02-13T02:43:33Z

Y'know, it's funny. Before, I HATED driving. Hated it like burning...BUT NOW that I have my license, I... actually kinda like driving? Strange... Well, it's probably because before, I would have to drive with someone (usually dad) and I felt like they were judging me and my driving ability. Which I guess was point of the behind-the-wheel and driving test, BUT STILL. Now, it's like, liberating to have the ability to go wherever I want, whenever I want ~~within reason~~ . Liek totally. /valley girl.

On a completely unrelated note, a major ~~irrational~~ pet peeve of mine is when someone (usually a writer) describes a dark-haired man as a brunette. Uh, the -ette suffix is indicative of a female (or something small). Like in Smurfette. Really. This mini-rant wasn't even sparked by anything specific, it just popped into my head randomly (like most things do) as I was about to fall asleep last night.

On another, even more unrelated note, there's this show on sci-fi channel called "The Scariest Places on Earth" which I can't take seriously for several reasons, not the least of which being the narrator reminds me of that dwarf medium from "Poltergeist". And I keep expecting her(?) to say, "Don't go into the light, Carol Anne!" (or something) and being vaguely disappointed when she doesn't. I'm also wary of any show where the people go on about "demons" or "spiritual vortices" (extra points if they say "vortexes") it just sounds like something out of a bad horror movie. *eyeroll*

:O

2008-01-23T20:14:57Z

Guess who just aced her driving test?

Go on, guess. >:)

On an unrelated note, this is my newest favorite thing EVAR.

Ohmygodtheyletmedriveacar. part deux.

2008-01-08T20:26:07Z

Well. I had my first driving lesson on Friday. (Yeah I know I was supposed to have one two weeks ago but uh...haha that didn't happen...>_>) It went well. Shorter than expected...hm. As long as I can pass the drivers test (on the 23rd omg) in Hudson. Bleh. I don't like practical tests. >:P

My life's boring right now. Like that's anything new. OH. I got new contacts! And my perscription hasn't changed much so at least I'm not getting any blinder...Whoo.

Kay. Since this is the most exciting thing I can think to write about I'm just going to stop now. While I'm ahead.

Holycrapit's2008.

2008-01-02T17:10:59Z

.....

HAPPY FREAKIN' NEW YEAR.

I won't post new resolutions because, uh... the last ones are still in effect...mostly. Ha. :B

ohmygodthey'reactuallygoingtoletmedriveacar.

2007-12-21T18:59:55Z

HAHAHA I signed up for driving instructions and my first lesson is today at three. 8D Why yes, I do realize that everyone else did this shit at like, sixteen. :x

It's important to get my drivers license.

But I really, really, really, REALLY don't like driving. Really.

The problem is I'm too imaginative. I always imagine the worst possible outcome. Like some kind of fiery death. I'm not being pessimistic. I just have bad luck. Bad luck of the fiery death variety. I'm convinced the only reason I made it this far is because I let other people do the driving for me. Letting me drive a car by myself can only end in disaster. Fiery death disaster.

You don't believe me? Here let's prove it mathematically:

Me + car + alone x3 = gruesome fiery death.

YOU SEE. YOU CANT ARGUE WITH MATH. D:

Y'know, this wouldn't be a problem if I lived in the city where I could just walk or bus everywhere. But noooooooo. I have to live out in the middle of nowhere where everyone drives a car just to go to the neighbors'. :|

SO IF NONE OF YOU HEAR FROM ME AGAIN, THAT'S WHY.

Okay. Okay. I'm really just nervous I'll make an idiot out of myself during the lessons. That's all. But it sounds so much more dramatic this way, doesn't it? And I still don't like driving.

dusky_rue @ 2007-12-04T13:59:00

2007-12-04T20:05:30Z

Whooooo.

I got paid for my freelance! (Finally)

*dances around* moneymoneymoney. <---child of the 80's

I got $150 which isn't very much, but considering it was only about two and a half hours of work... it's a lot of money. \o/ yeah.

I reeeeally need to get back into the habit of animating. I can feel my skills oozing out of my brain. Like pudding. Come back, skill-pudding!

I've been drawing a lot, though. Fleshing out characters and worldbuilding and stuff. My problem is I have all these ideas but never manage to get them on paper. Mostly. I do have this notebook that's full of character descriptions, background info, worldbuilding, and plot points, but it's so disjointed only I can make sense of it. I need to get a script done and start drawing it. But I'm afraid that my first attempt will look horrible, so I tell myself I need a "practice story" for well, practice. BUT THEN I get so bogged down with trying to flesh out that story that before I know it, it's another story that I don't want looking like a first attempt, either. Essentially, my "practice story" becomes a real one. One I want to look good too... It's a vicious cycle.

Sooo. What about a short story, you ask? Well, my short stories always manage to become too long... The short story isn't a format I'm really comfortable with... And there's another problem, in case you haven't noticed, my writing style is pretty incoherent....I either become bored or I'm distracted by other things. OR other stories. Uuuggh. >_<

You know, this rant really has no point. I just need to vent a little. I have a lot to say but never say it. How is it that I'm able to rant out loud, but when it comes to putting it down in writing, I don't feel capable of expressing my frustrations without the aid of throwing small pieces of furniture across the room. Gah. What an awkward sentence. Waaay to mutilate the English language.

I'm not good at putting things into words. Aaannd that's probably why I never write in this thing.

In other news:

♥AVATAR.♥

dusky_rue @ 2007-11-07T14:45:00

2007-11-07T20:57:29Z

GRAH.

Whyyyyyyyy do I always sound so damn formal online?

don't answer that.

I'm not a snob, really...:{

Y'know, I haven't posted any art in a while, methinks I'll have to dig up some sketchbooks to scan.

Huzzah \o/ <--It's stuff like that, isn't it.

dusky_rue @ 2007-11-05T12:06:00

2007-11-05T18:15:57Z

HOOOOLY CRAP IT'S SNOWING.

Oh, wait, it stopped.

No, wait, it started again.

Okay, now it's sunny.

November ♥♥♥

:O

2007-10-21T22:18:44Z

I got a haircut! And highlights.

HOLY CRAP. I look sooooo much different now. I haven't cut my hair in six years. SIX YEARS. Far too long. My head feels so light. 8D

...I forgot to take before/after pictures so you'll just have to use your imagination. Or something.

I need to make some new icons.

Edit: I KNEW IT. Okay, I had no idea, but that's still awesome. 8D

dusky_rue @ 2007-10-14T19:19:00

2007-10-15T00:21:23Z

Aww.

I just realized I missed Avatar for the second week in a row.

>:[

Bleh. I hate Sundays.

...

2007-08-02T13:23:45Z

I could have been on that bridge...

Everyone should be finished by now.

2007-08-02T13:20:26Z

Okay.

I finished it well over a week ago but put off writing about it for the sake of friends who hadn't read the book yet. The book. As if there can be any doubt as to which one I mean. The following entry will contain spoilers. You have been warned.

Well. Where to begin? I think I'll start off by saying that this book might very well end up as my favorite. Except for that one part where FRED DIES >:( it was a very enjoyable book. So dark. Total bloodbath. Without a lot of actual blood, since people were dying from curses and such.

People have been saying that there was a lot of senseless death in this one, but y'know, it's a WAR and in WAR people DIE. Senslessly. I mean I figured Snape would die. That was kind of a given. I also figured he was good. And that he and Dumbledore had some sort of agreement before the tower scene in book 6. Speaking of Snape, I wasn't suprised that he was in love with Lily, but I was suprised JK made it canon. I thought it was just fannish speculation. But now as I look back, it makes sense.

I was sad about Hedwig, but that death was sort of overshadowed by all the others. Mad-Eye, you shall be missed. And so will George's ear.

Guh. Poor Weasly family. Poor George. Ugh. HOW COULD SHE BREAK UP THE TWINS LIKE THAT?! I always said that the worst thing any author can do is kill one twin and leave the other alive. Especially identical twins.

But oh man. Molly. Fucking. Owned. Bellatrix. (Though I still say Neville should have been the one to do it.)

AND NEVILLE. SO BADASS. He's come a long way from the scared, stuttering boy who tried to stop the trio from going out after hours.

So the Horcruxes bite it as follows:
1. The diary. Basilisk fang'd by Harry.
2. The ring. Stabbed by Dumbledore using the sword of Gryffindor that killed the Basilisk.
3. The locket. Stabbed by Ron also using the sword.
4. The cup. Basilisk fang'd by Hermione.
5. The diadem. Inadvertenly Fiendfyre'd by Crabbe.
6. Harry himself. Temporarily done in by Voldemort.
7. The snake. Decapitated by Neville using the Gryffindor sword. Neville, your Gran must be so proud :3

Kelly! We need to go to Scotland. >:|

Guess what? I sprained my ankle on Sunday. 8D And I was on a walk when it happened so I had to hobble for a mile IN THE DARK to get home! :B But! I found a nifty hawk feather on the way so the day was not totally wasted, right?

ajdsfjlfjdl;

2007-05-23T15:55:53Z

I just got done with my panel review.

Ugh.

Talk about psychological warfare...>:|

It went well, I think. Actually, I don't remember exactly what happened. Or what was said. All I have to go on are an assortment of ill-written chicken-scratch notes.

This sort of thing happens when I have to present something. I totally blank out during the presentation and can't remember a thing of what was said.

I have this feeling of being vaguely dissapointed. But not in a really bad way... I dunno.

...............

I need a drink.

Ouch.

2007-04-26T01:34:28Z

:(

Hokay, so I just found out that since I'm now a part-time student, I have to start paying back my student loans, like, NOW. Aaaand. Because I'm only a part-time student, I'm no longer covered by my parent's health insurance...so, I better not get into an accident or become seriously ill in the next few months until I find a decent job. >_< *Knocks on wood*

Feh.

Edit: !!!
I JUST BURNED MY FINGER ON A TOASTER-OVEN. OH, HOW THIS DAY JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER. I should just go to bed RIGHT NOW.

Okay, to make up for two emo-posts in a row, I'm gonna bombard y'all with more art. :B

This is an oldish pic (circa June/July of '06) which was never finished. Heh. It's supposed to be night-time. I don't have the patience for hardcore pencil-shading. :P Oh. yeah. boobie-warning yaddayaddayadda.

An experiment in Painter! This is one of my first Painter-pics. Obviously unfinished and kinda old. :/ This is why I don't CG. Ever. Totally envy those who have the patience for it. I wish I did. Ha. This is actual size too. :F

That's all. Until something else blog-worthy happens. <3